all we ever did was smile.

my hip hurts, i’m grumpy, i feel forgotten.

next weekend I’ll be getting ready for my birthday party. All I want this year for my birthday is my best friends around a campfire at Beth’s family house- just like old times. I can’t believe I’m lucky enough to get my wish.

Last year everything was different. Last year I didn’t do anything for my birthday. I cooked dinner and that was it. Last year everything was different.

Last year everything was different.
Last year everything was different.
This year everything is different.
Thank goodness we’re still the same.

They’re married!

Dear friends, they’re married, and thats all that really matters. Even if everyone who was supposed to come couldn’t, there were still a lot in attendance. A lot more than I expected, which was wonderful.  The snow kept coming down all day. It was magical. After getting ready in the church’s nursery, we rushed outside around to the front of the sanctuary to walk down the aisle. I’m sure the photographer took some great pictures of us skittering in the snow. I can’t wait to see them. Everyone involved in the wedding was more than accommodating and super willing to help out with anything. After moving the wedding up to noon, a local hotel had a conference room available and was able to host a small reception. By luck or divine intervention the colors in the room where the same colors of the wedding, red and gold. Everything worked out, this was the most planned wedding, that ended up being the most unplanned wedding, and I couldn’t imagine how it could have been better. As I said, the important thing is they’re married.

I didn’t take too many pictures at the wedding, because of the madness that existed and because I was in it. So here are some from last night rehearsal dinner, and a few from today.

Best friends. evah.

This is why we’re meant for each other.

Fluffing the dress.

Now the deed and day is done, time to relax with the family. Oh right.. that doesn’t really happen. OH BROTHER(s). I’ve got two, anyone interested in one? They come attached to some very nice ladies, so it kind of balances them out.. kinda.

Persons and People

Person- (noun) an individual in your life that you tell all important news to first, and everything else in your life in general.  They know you extremely well and are invested in your life.

Usually your person is the one closest to you and the daily going on’s in your life; such as a best friend or significant other. They fill that emotional need to feel connected and relevant to the world around. I need a new person. My ex used to be my person. I cannot expect that of him anymore, and I know that. Its not fair for me to expect him to care that I just highlighted my hair (it looks great by the way) or that I’m thinking about taking Public Relations and Marketing Strategies for the Arts next term.

All my old persons, that I could possibly fall back on, have persons of their own now.  We’re not in the same place we all used to be. A lot them haven’t been in my life for quite sometime, and I don’t want to back track. There other people in my life, a few old persons and a few new persons.

A person is only really significant in your life when they’re there. When they move away physically or emotionally, you can’t ask them to stay in a place they don’t want to be. And as hard as it is to let them go, and to tell yourself its okay they’re not there for you, you know you have to.

You know that its just life, and that everything will right its self.

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I wrote the above five days ago.  That was before I realized that some people have never left me. Some will eventually leave me, and drift away. And I’ll be okay with that, I’m sure I’ll do the same to others. I’m really at peace with this. Of course its still hard but, I’m okay, I’m okay, I’m okay.

Owl Friends.

On the other hand, this makes me very happy!

Thanks Dana!

Be The Tree

This weekend is turning out to be amazing- all my favorite people have decided to come into town! I am so happy! Also I had a chance to help out  Lauren with her new project. She’s illustrating a book and needed images of a little girl to draw from. The story is about a little girl tree who is sad because she doesn’t know what she’ll be when she grows up.

With the help of our friend Beth’s little sister Hope (who is a fantastic model, so easy to shot) we go the job done. It was really fun and I enjoyed having a reason to shot again. You can see the images here.

And it’s all too much hindsight

If it looks like a duck, talks like a duck, and acts like duck that probably means you are in a relationship. I know I see things my way, and you seem them yours, but what happens when a collective whole sees them one way too. Who’s right? If all your friends think a guy is a huge (insert your choice word here) does it make him that? Are you just over looking things and fooling yourself?

Hindsight is always 20/20, but what about foresight?

Sandy Dreams.

I’ve always wanted to go on a crazy, sunny, sandy, wild, drunken spring break to some cheesey city in Florida or South Carolina. Okay maybe not the drunken part so much. I’d love to just get away for a whole week without school, or money worries or anything like that.

At least that what all my distant highschool friends portray in their many Facebook albums of their spring break.  Surprisingly none of those people are art majors, or anything that may actually use their brain. (Harsh maybe, but lets just call me what I am, a bitter art nerd) You see when I and all my fellow photo or art majors always had went on spring break we couldn’t dash off to a sunny wasteland. Noooooo, we had to save our money to buy supplies, new equipment, or look for summer jobs in order to save for that latter. 

So while I’ve graduated from college, I really hope that some day me and my best girlfriends will be able to go to some cheesey town for a couple of days. Who know we might have kids or husbands by the time this happens, but I will always hold out hope for that magical twenty-something spring break.