I think I’ve been over doing it. I don’t really know what’s going on with me right now. I’d love to put a name on it an explain it all away but I don’t see that happening.
I tired to use a french press this morning to make coffee, and it didn’t go over well. There were many things I might have done wrong, such as my water might not have been hot enough, maybe I didn’t let it brew long enough, or maybe I didn’t have enough coffee grounds in the press. Whatever it was I might try again tomorrow morning, after more research on exactly “how-to”. So because of all that I switched to tea, a fairly foolproof morning beverage. I’m drinking Ginger Green Tea. Ginger tea is so spicy! It has such a bite to it. I’m hoping it’ll help calm my stomach. Not that my stomach is really the issue, but everything seems to be affected.
red happens
Right now I am house sitting and being a zoo keeper! The friends of friends who’s house I am staying at have a menagerie of pets- 2 mongrel dogs and 4.5 cats (the .5 is a feral cat that they allow in to eat, and hang out but can’t really claim, although he did choose to sleep with me last night). I am very grateful for this chance to be out and away from my house and in a new environment. The House is beautiful, the couple never had any kids (thus all the furry kids) and have spent a lot of time fixing up their house. There are so many full length windows that let the light in, especially in the kitchen- where I’ve set up shop. I’ve brought all my camera equipment because I just feel so inspired here. I don’t know what I’ll do but I feel like doing something. Which is a good place to be. Here’s some images of my first 24 hours, and it’s still not over yet so there may be more to come!!
Bill, the Cat
Kitchen Setup
Stella, Blanche, and Puddin'
I feel like this week is already gone. I have so much to do, and so much will happen. I feel so stressed out and worn thin. Tonight is my best friend Lauren’s Bachelorette Party in Richmond. Tomorrow is bible study, which I haven’t touched. I just really haven’t been able to sit and focus on it. I’ve tried- but it just doesn’t work. Friday I leave for the Rehearsal and Rehearsal dinner in Urbana, and I’m staying there that night. All day saturday is wedding madness, and then driving back here asap to take care of the zoo. I know I will be able to enjoy all these events- once I’m there and in the moment. Right now though my mind is frazzled, and I feel so emotionally exhausted already. I need time to rest and I just don’t see that coming just yet. I also think some of my stress is coming from prepping for camp. I leave in 20 days, and I don’t feel ready. I’m afraid I’m going to miss something, forget something, forget someone.
Today was a whining day, please forgive me.
save your day. by José Gonzalez
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Poke the body with a stick roll it down
Ignore the moaning as it tumbles to the ground
Be brave and save your day
These days are cold
Numbers rule I’ve been told
The pattern is clear better fit in the mould
Be brave and save your day
To cough up sympathy isn’t hard but it costs
Hold tight to your life savings
You have to do what you must
To save your day
So poke the body and roll it down
The grave looks cold but we’re still young
ps-Arturo made my day by commenting on my last post, thank you friend!!
