Exciting times.

I can’t believe that this time next week I’ll be dancing away at my brother’s wedding!! This will begin my summer of weddings. Its been a brief lull since my dear friend Beth’s wedding in December, and before that I was in my best friend’s Lauren a year ago.

After my brother’s next weekend, my other brother’s wedding is in July and then my dear friend Leah’s is in August. My life has become a romantic comedy. Just so long as I end up with prince charming in the end, I don’t mind.  I’m so happy for all of these couples, I’m busting with joy. These are very exciting times we live in.

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No. Not. Never.

You’re not supposed to just show up like that.
Just, no.

Although my friends say some lovely things to me, help me.
Someday  I will share, only in jest instead of malice.

I am happy.

Lets play.

Lets just, for today, play the “Amy Wins Game.” It’s a lot of fun (for me).  Heres the deal, I wear pretty clothes, none of which are weather appropriate and I smile a lot.

Couples Craze!

this makes me so happy.

today will be another marathon day, at least I didn’t have to struggle to get out of bed this morning. Always a posi thing. Art council at 9:45, C3 Legos at 2, school work… tonight? Gosh I hope so.

This weekend I had the oppertunity to photograph these two great couples, needless to say- my weekend was filled with love and happiness.

Adam and Katelyn

Whitney and Mike, congrats!

Also i’m pretty stoked for these other awesome couples; Erin and Adam in May and Leah and David in August !! I know so many adorable couple, I go in to sugar shock.

paper cranes & lanterns

I hung paper cranes and eyelet lanterns in my room.

I’ve recently found a treasure trove of amazing images and quotes. swoon.

“Man, I was thinking about unrequited love. I figure it’s best to just walk that shit off. Find someone else to be excited about. It’s like if you love ice cream but your ice cream man friend won’t give you any. Maybe he’s got a good reason. It cuts into profits. Who knows? But he likes you as a friend and wants to hang out anyway. It drives you crazy to hang out with that dude, even if he’s being reasonable from his point of view. So don’t hang out with him. What, you ONLY like ice cream? It’s ice cream or nothing? Don’t be an asshole. Learn to love donuts.” -Joey Comeau

Catching up

Is it a little malicious of me to become really happy when I see someone who’s done me wrong unhappy? In this holiday season of cheer and joy, am I being a Grinch? I think everyone would agree that the answer to that is yes, but then the question would have to be, do I care? I keep flip flopping between chiding myself for thinking such mean things, and smiling viciously. I am not a vindictive person, and there is no way I could plan or scheme to hurt someone. Its not in my nature. I know I would fail at it if I tried. So yes it is mean of me to think that way, and I should have more compassion for people. New Years resolution?

How nerdy of me is it that I not only listen religiously to NPR, but now I’ve also started listening to the Canadian Broadcast Corperation, or the CBC. I’ve been listening to “Wiretap” with Jonathan Goldstein. Goldstein has been a regular contributor to This American Life in the past. Wiretap is a great podcasts that has a wonderful cast of characters and goofy life stories. The gist of the show is Goldstein’s interactions with his friends with a mix of stories thrown in.

So today I went to the mall, which halfway there I realized this was probably not a good idea today being the first real drivable day since thursday and of course everyone would be out at the mall today, I wanted to used this Victoria Secret Secret Santa card I got in November. These cards can have a surprise amount of $10, $50, $100 or $500. Almost always they’re 10 dollars. I picked out what I wanted to get thinking it was $10 off and walked up to the counter to discover my card was worth $100!! I couldn’t believe it, I felt as if I’d hit the jack pot. So I took another turn or two around the store and picked up a few other things. I decided to get this super luxe cashmere cardigan (the gray one above) I’d been eying and a cozy purple shirt, and lastly I picked something for Mom for christmas. I have tons of underwear and bras, why not get something for someone else.

I’m housesitting once again, only this time for a different house. Unlike where I usually housesit this house does not have a menagerie of animals, but only one lonely bulldog Haley. She is a chunk of dog and I can here her snoring from a few rooms away too. Should be fun!

light of heart, light of spirit

It’s official! This is a year (and then some to come) of weddings. I was in my first wedding, my best friend Lauren’s this past may. In six days I will be in my second, my friend Beth’s. This coming July I’ll be in my oldest brother Matt’s and his sweet fiancé Josie. Tonight I just got the word that my other brother is officially engaged, and my newest soon-to-be sister Katelyn has asked me to be in their wedding too. I am so beyond happy for all these wonderful people in my life.

dance

“To say we are lovers, says very little about what happened,
and to say we are friends says even less.
No, if I am to understand the whole thing,
I’ll have to say the whole thing.
For in the end what I need to know is
weather what happened,
between me and you was
right or wrong” TAL

mazel tov my sweet loves.

Am I Happier?

I’ve been asking myself that a lot lately.  Wondering if  the changes I have made in life made a change yet? Honestly I don’t think I  can answer that; at least for right now.

I don’t think I’m happier, but I’m not as sad. Or is it.. I’m not as sad as often. Or is it.. when I’m sad its only because I feel an void in my life. Where as before I felt hurt because I knew what I was missing. I guess thats better, it’s certainly not worse.

Sometimes I think about where I was a year ago, living on my own at school, with a job and friends. Then I think about where I was six months ago, having just broken up from my first relationship.  Then I think about where I am now, at home with no job and no friends. The only distraction being grad school, and that isn’t captivating for me enough right now for me to throw myself into completely.

Everyone says I’m doing so well. That everything I’m thinking and feeling is normal. Everyone can relate to my problems and find a commonality within their own lives.  I think thats great and all, but I’m left wondering- when I’ll be me again. I am not this down and dowdy person who’s in a really weird transitional phase.

I am Amy the Awesome, or did you forget?